I did not love wedding planning. I hated it and it stressed me out so much that my doctor suggested I take xanax. I took her up on that and it did help a little. I haven't taken a xanax since the day before our wedding because the day after our wedding, we went on our honeymoon where I literally floated around gorgeous Little Bay, Saint Maarten in an inflatable inner tube sipping Guavaberry Coladas for seven days. All that floating and sunshine and honeymooning (wink wink) completely mellowed me out.
So why am I blabbing about my honeymoon when I lured you over here from Instagram, you may be wondering? I really do have some big news. No, I'm not pregnant. Sorry, Nana. I haven't even told some friends this news yet because I'm still kind of in shock of the fact that I did this thing and it's worked out so well.
Well for the past month or so, I've been feeling like Honeymoon Jenny because I quit my job! I didn't realize how much I needed a change until that first Monday when I felt so free. Free as a gal feeding pretzels to tropical fish from her inner tube in the Carribean Sea.
For seven years, I had been a Case Manager for a tiny family therapy program. It was clinical and at times, hard to leave the work at home. And I left that professional, secure job with great benefits to go work at everyone's favorite specialty grocery chain. The ones that's been called the Second Happiest Place on Earth. The one that I've always joked about wanting to quit my job and go work at. Well, I quit my job to go work there. And I LOVE it. Everyone that works there really is that happy and nice. I'm just there a couple of days and will also be doing some per diem stuff on the side.
Leaving my old job was hard. I had good benefits and flexibility and I felt beholden to my degree. A change in routine also seemed super scary. But the new routine is actually great and the kids get a bit more solo time with my husband. And one day a week, he gets to experience a school morning on his own which he says is too much for one person to do but that is a story for another day...
I really feel like I made the best decision that I've made in a long time. I have so much more brain capacity to focus on my babies and my husby. I am feeling so in love with my little family and making our little nest run smoother and feel cozier. I'm meeting interesting new people and I don't have to stress out over what to wear. And I'm basically doing eight hours of crossfit every time I work, so who has the good bikini recommendations?? I mean, my mom even says I seem less high strung... thanks, mom...
Everything just feels a little easier now. It's easier to play and easier to laugh. Easier to be patient. Easier to be the mom that I've always dreamed about being. I've literally dreamed of being a mom and having this little family for as long as I can remember. Time is flying by and I am so fortunate that I am able to prioritize being with our children during this time in their lives.
While the freezer section may seem far away from the warm Caribbean Sun both places seem to inspire me to walk around with a big old smile on my face.